Attempting to blog again...

Well, it's official. I am 100 days away from being a Mizzou grad. I hope...

The only reason I say "I hope" is because I've been jumping through hoops trying to get them to erase the "F" I "had" from Comm Law. I had an "I" because the semester I took Comm Law was the semester I carried 15 hours, the Missourian, the job at Olive Garden, STRIPES, Vagina Monologues AND pledging my sorority. For all the greeks out there (especially the black greeks), they know exactly how much of a drain pledging can be. Anyway, I re-took the course this summer and Sandy Davidson forgot to pass on my grade change. So now I have the registrar AND the j-school breathing down my neck. Lame, lame, lame and even more lame. Somedays, I really wish I had just walked away from journalism when I added on English as my second major. 

*quick gripe about j-school: it sucks, most of the professors won't even attempt to help you if you don't go running after every internship that comes your way and a lot of the people i sit in classes with have their heads so far up their asses because of their internships and experiences. keep in mind i'm not referring to all j-schoolers. just 95% ;)*

I'm not going to lie, it's going to be all that I can do NOT to run across that stage and snatch my degree. I find that most days when I go to class, my extracurricular activities and out with friends, I find myself saying the same thing: "I'm getting too old for this shit." The pettiness, the backbiting, the snippy comments and the unwanted come-ons (I'm gonna break for a second to plug a fellow friend's blog: http://femaleandbreathing.blogspot.com read and be enlightened) is enough to make me just want to leave school and start my life elsewhere. 

As for good news: I am digging my english capstone (yay irish lit) and I have some fun weekends coming up: Trish's b-day this weekend, Vagina Monologues/Kevin's visit next weekend and Becca's visit the weekend after that. I'm gonna end on that b/c I can't think of other stuff that's been going on to blog about. Yeah, I've been that boring.

MUSIC CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: "Me and Mr. Jones" by Amy Winehouse (YAY for AW going to rehab! can she drop a new disc? actually, i'd much rather her wait and really get healthy rather than the record execs push her into a new album)

hitting the home stretch of summer...

i don't know whether to call my summer successful or not. on the one hand, i finally took history of american journalism and repeated comm law and passed both. on the other hand, i withdrew from the english class because it was causing an ungodly amount of stress. high fives though because i finally found out i am on the fast track to a may 2008 graduation where i will be receiving my two degrees. holla if you hear me! lol.

socially, things are kind of about the same. people are re-settling and re-adjusting themselves in their roles they play in my life. that kinda makes no sense but let's see if i can clear this up. i can see who is being a good friend, who's being a shitty friend, which man isn't worth a damn, and that the man everyone thought wasn't worth a damn is stepping up.

headed back home in a couple of days. this should be fun considering i've been fighting with the parents. AGAIN.

music currently playing: "Truckin'" by The Grateful Dead

dumbest mistake ever...

so after i was tired of looking at the disgusting grime that was left behind by the person who previously lived in my apartment, i decided to take it upon myself to take some extreme measures to clean.

i mixed up a little ammonia, hot water and elbow grease. the smell of ammonia is ridiculously obnoxious. i forgot to pick up a gas mask so i had to cover my nose and mouth with a towel. as if that wasn't bad enough, i decided to splash some bleach on the surfaces i had gone over with my ammonia mix. in my head i was thinking ammonia+bleach equals super white surfaces.

turns out ammonia+bleach really equals CHLORINE GAS.

my bad. times ten. squared.

luckily i got the hint pretty fast when my nostrils and eyes started to burn and i felt lightheaded. i dumped the mix as fast as i could but when i called my mom she freaked her shit in a huge way. looks like this no ammonia no bleach together thing is something that everyone knew but me.

hence, it is safe to call this DUMBEST MISTAKE EVER.

music currently listening to: "God Must Hate Me" by Simple Plan

full steam ahead...

and steamed is what i am.

why the fuck do i have to constantly be everything to everyone?

"lola give me advice"
"lola, i need a ride here"
"lola, i need you to pick up my phone calls"
"lola..."
"lola.."
"Lola...!"

is it so much to ask that i take some personal time for myself and people let me HAVE IT?

music currently playing: "A.D.D. (American Dream Denial)" by System of a Down

some much needed incentive

my dad and i have been talking about replacing my car when I graduate from college. i'm excited because as much as i love my explorer, it's gotten its use. i've had the car since i was 17 and in that car, i've seen texas, missouri, oklahoma, illinois, indiana and michigan. i've survived a few wrecks in it. and i've definitely had some fun times in that car.

but i'm lookin' to upgrade and here is a pic of what i want to upgrade to. a 2007 infiniti fx35...my dad has also laid down the law. no car with no graduation and/or no car if the GPA is below 3.4

guess this puts an end to my partying days for a minute. hey, i love you guys, but i would love a new car more! :)

summer school starts tomorrow, which means i need to get my beauty rest and finish doing chores around the house.

MUSIC CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: "The Sound of Settling" by Death Cab For Cutie

there's just something about testosterone boys and harlequin girls...

i believe sarah jessica parker had it right when she said the following:

"maybe all men are a drug. sometimes they make you feel so low. other times they get you so high."

i'll attest to that and let's just say right now i'm in the latter, not the former :)

currently listening to: "Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off" by Panic! At the Disco

all your base are belong to us...

you know, every day i see some type of evolution of technology. on the one hand, it's incredibly bad-assed (like how i can mapquest a road map from my blackberry, which is very useful because i roadtrip like five to eight times in a year).

on the other hand, it's freaky. big brother could be spying on me from my macbook (in that case, all the girls in the photos ARE OVER 18 ;) ), someone can ALWAYS be in contact with me via laptop (email, facebook, myspace, AOL instant messenger) or by cell phone (phone calls, text messages, email sent to my phone from my mizzou account), and finally it's such a drain on our time.

i feel sorry for anyone born later than, say 1989 because i doubt they remember what life was before nearly every american home had a laptop and steve jobs/bill gates were battling for our attention spans. i'm 22 years old and my 10 year old cousin can build a webpage better than i can. i'm pretty sure the health conscious can now blame childhood obesity on computers too because kids spend an ungodly amount of time in front of a computer screen instead of outside tossing a football, riding a bike or flying a kite (man, it's been forever since i tried to fly a kite). but then again, i'm guilty of spending too much time on the computer (especially facebook since they started installing all these crazy ass applications, damn you mark zuckerberg!).

i feel like taking up dr. ronci's challenge like i did last summer. there would be up to three days at a time where i would leave my cell phone off and my laptop off. those were good times because i would be so relaxed just sitting on my couch having a smoke, doing a sudoku and watching my law and order mini-marathons. it's nice knowing that you can control who can contact you and who can't.

to sum this all up, i am reminded of a line from my favorite cartoon character huey freeman from the boondocks: "Just think...we could all be reading a book right now."

in fact, i hear Helter Skelter by Bugliosi calling to me. y'all should read it. it's an account of the manson family and the tate/labianca murders from the prosecutor Vincent Bugliosi's point of view. manson was a nutter butter but it's a very interesting study in psychology.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: "Virtual Insanity" by Jamiroquai (how fitting...)